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So it is March 30, 2011. My life is complicated and simple. I have school, work, family, friends, boyfriend, and live in an amazing and beautiful place. School is finishing up in a little over a month. I am so excited to finish up at Saddleback. I am looking forward to going to Oregon State, a lot. But I truly wish I did not have to leave to attend. I can't imagine myself leaving Orange County again. Last time I was so homesick that I moved home. I know that I have to finish school, get an education, a degree, and then go off to my career... but I really don't want to leave. I know that Oregon has everything a college could offer, seeing as I was there for a year. Beautiful environment, nice dorms, good class sizes, my favorite weather, and friends, but it is in another state, like a thousand miles away. As each day passes, I grow in anticipation. I feel I am more ready now to take on my classes, fully commit, and finish school so I can move on with my life. I guess OSU is where I belong. I definitely feel at home there. But my heart lies somewhere else, with someone else. Leaving is going to be so hard. Leaving my family, William, my friends... I don't want to face it in 6 months time. But as a human being, I must accept the changes and grow. My future in my head is planned with dotted lines that I want to make bold and thick. But I can't, yet. I need to get an education, a degree, a life. I can not wait for the day that I can walk down the aisle and start that part of my life, it is all I really want. I want a family and a home and a future where I smile every morning because I am so happy. In my head it all starts in the summer of 2012, but I know it will take more time. I am afraid that with time, things are less likely to happen. Time makes me scared. But I will wait, because it is worth waiting for. As for now, I am looking forward to school, but more looking forward to the visits home. I don't know where I am going to live after I graduate or when I will visit if I live in a different county, state, or country... But I know here is where my home is. Time will pass, just like every minute goes by, so I am looking forward to tomorrow, and the next day, putting a smile on my face and looking forward for what is to come.
to the world unknown to many. 
You never know what cards you are going to be dealt, what kind of situation you will be in, or who the people around you may truly be. I am lucky enough to say that I am blessed with my co-workers. It has almost been a year of working for Regal and I must say I have seen my fair share of good and bad people walk in and out of its doors. Many I miss, some I don't. But Friday night after work I finally got around to going to the weekly Denny's get-together. I was surprised at all the people that ended up going because its hanging out with your co-workers. Who voluntarily does that? Well apparently some great people! I think there ended up being like 20 people, more like half of our floor staff as one of the managers put it. It was so great to see people outside of popcorn tubs and brooms and butlers, even if some where still wearing their polos. We had endless pancakes, hot chocolate and some good laughs. I must say that I am glad that I know all of these people. They make working a tire-some job with grumpy customers and too many coupons worth it. So this is a shout out to all my Regal employees; Thanks for being you! 
