in an instant

eyes flitter open

to the world unknown to many. 

things go spinning, 

lights strobe in the distance. 

in an instant its all new

this unimaginable world.

shaking commences

numbness over takes

but a smile crosses the face. 

there is nothing more,

nothing else. 

piercing starbursts into the soul.

heart beats louder, faster, stronger.

you know you are home. 

wanting the dream of a promise as soon as possible

I have never been so sure  of something in my life. You know that feeling when you are positive about something, and you want that something to happen as soon as possible. Well, that's where I stand in my life at the moment. I know it hasn't been that long, and many people think its crazy... But when you know, you know. I know age, school, jobs, money, location, time, family, and reality are huge road blocks or concerns at the moment, but I just wish it was simple. Plans are discussed, and as much as we want our dreams to become reality, we know it'll take some time... too much time in my head. But that's who I am, I am a dreamer. I truly wish things were simple. I am really scared about this next year, and what will actually happen compared to ones goals and plans. It would be so wonderful if everything would just work out, but I am not going to get my hopes up. I am so excited for the future, for it, one day, will be the happiest moments of my life. I will be looking at someone I love with my whole heart, promising my heart and forever to him. And after that, we will have our whole lives; the good days, the bad days, the cold and warm, the planned and the unexpected. With everything I am, I wish it were happening this summer, or even the next... But I will wait, even though with every minute that goes by I grow more scared, for I love him more than anything.